Last 3 letters of the spring

If you had asked me then what I wanted 

I would have said nothing 

But now

Now I want the sky and the dead stars

all of them

I want their ashes

stored deep in my tiger scars

If you had asked me then what I wanted 

I would have said lovely

It’s just 

The tears were scratching the back of my throat 

But now

Now I think it is terribly wrong

Such a mindless question coming from such a sharp-witted boy

I always thought you were smarter than I was 

And there is nothing lovely about that

It almost feels like kindness

exactly 

what I 

should have 

back then 

when you 

did

when I 

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