11.12. 22:45
The truth is, you left, and I never got over it—merciless and unforgiving. How do you forgive someone who isn’t even sorry?
09.09. 19:57
I am seeing this one dude. He seems to be smart. We talk a lot. We have very nice conversations, except for one thing—he keeps bringing up things he doesn’t like about me.
13.08. 13:14
There is no point in dwelling on it. I don’t even think I like you as a human being anymore.
30.05. 17:34
You know what I miss the most? Your Dubai hoodie.
15.05. 20:20
I need to get out there. I need to fall in love. I need to love someone else. Not you.
14.05. 21:00
Can I say something? I was jealous. All the fucking time.
24.04. 23:23
I used to think you were the best person in the entire world. Now, when I look at you, I don’t want to look at you.
22.04. 00:02
I don’t know how to talk to you anymore. I don’t know what to say. I am afraid that I will say something wrong. Or, I will do something wrong, like crying, and you will cut me off.
15.04. 12:18
I was unhappy too. It was very important to me to know that you wanted to be there, with me, for me. I never knew.
30.03. 11:10
I think we both lost ourselves at some point. I don’t know why, or how, but we did. I wish you could have talked to me, trusted me enough to tell me how you really felt, instead of letting it slip through our fingers. And I really wish I wasn’t that afraid of losing you.
Keeping up with you was exhausting—when you left, I almost felt relieved.
27.03. 21:03
It has been difficult, dreadful, terribly wrong. I have done things I am not proud of: I lied to myself. I cheated. I picked up very weird habits.
I am afraid I will never find it again. If I do, it’s not going to be the same, and it’s not going to be you. I wanted it to be you. It’s been an awful year, but a year.
24.03. 12:12
She wasn’t that great, but she was new, and she wanted you, didn’t she? I think she was already there. She had been there for a while.
27.02. 03:43
Whenever I say something, I keep expecting them to react the way you would, and they don’t.
19.02. 10:19
I think I hate you because I have to go on dates again.
10.02. 21:03
You see, I don’t need you. I wouldn’t need you. Reasonably enough, I should be fine by now.
09.02. 23:16
Flirt with me. Go on dates with me. Be curious about me. Fuck me. Kiss me. Wtf is wrong with you?
29.01. 00:05
We never went dancing.
08.01. 22:17
You know what I think? I think you are so afraid of being rejected that you reject everything that makes you feel, just to have a false sense of control over your life.
07.01. 00:44
Pretty shitty day to be honest. I am glad it’s over.
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