The last 3 letters of the spring

If you are going to leave
leave completely
leave utterly
leave (what’s another word for describing a death?)
cut the cords, and all the red strings
untie all the destiny threads
burn the bridges and the castle’s gates
set on fire the entire city if you must
and raze to the ground
all my pillow fortresses 
heighten defences—I am here to take everything from you
that’s why
that’s why I am crying

If you are leaving
don’t say: “I don’t know”
say: “It’s time”
say: “I made a mistake”
say: “It wasn’t true”

It’s one of those days when I miss you so much 
I almost think you might too

If you are leaving
be precise like a headsman
a clear-cut
that’s it
no room to bargain with the devil—’cause yk I have ways
I’d be hexing and cursing
caging you with my thighs
don’t avoid my glance
be cruel
as if kicking a puppy, or
stealing a candy from a child, or
inviting everyone except one to a birthday party
sit me down
don’t say nothing, don’t say you are fine
say you’ve been unhappy, and cannot sleep at night
say it’s my fault
say you are not ready—don’t kill me with kindness
kindness is love
hunt me down 
for months
silently waiting
taking your time
do not rush
it’s almost like fucking 
you want to hit that sweet soft spot
when I am defeated and warm—all yours
one shot
and it’s done (I am done)

If you are leaving
leave by meaning leaving
don’t leave saying 
you love me
too