The last 3 letters of the spring

So when you said that you loved me too
and when I said that I didn't want to see you anymore
and when I said that I wasn't your friend
and when I said that you weren't allowed to remember me
and when you said that you needed out
and the urgency of it, made me cry, you cried too
and when we looked at each other without saying anything
and when you said that you didn't want to kiss me 
that you didn't even want to touch me
and when I said that I was so very scared
and you said you couldn't help me 
so, please know

in that very moment all the bridges burnt
with a brief flame wavering like a light blinking 
whispering weary hatred 
we were
mirroring each other's shame
outshining the bigger picture
and when I said that I was so very angry 
and you said you couldn't change it

I had taken all the blame and turned into ashes
rain
stardust
who cares 
by the time it reached you, it was already dead


Please miss me a little more so I can miss you a little less