The last 3 letters of the spring

Nobody is coming
you are here all alone
What does that mean?
I am surrounded by faces 
white
black
most of them blue
like the sky? yes, like the mirroring ocean
deep
and composed 
as if by disturbing its waters you might awake something long forgotten
a sea giant? A sea giant. yes. 

I am just afraid 
I am still wearing the clown's clothes
yet I never said anything funny
and he’s laughing, bursting in
tears 
flaming out 
all over the floor 
his shoes lined up at the door 
That’s the joke!!!
did you get it?

I am just afraid
the cage’s golden
yet I am not a bird I do not sing I do not fly
I am just inside
Is that the pun? Oh, I get it!
A stayer, yet never a keeper (she laughed not anymore)

Remember when you thought you'd be over it in a month?!
yeah...

I am just afraid
I’d watch him holding a hand he didn’t let go of
as in clinging? no. as in needing. "needing" what an interesting word. 
"tom-ay-to" vs. "tom-ah-to"

All my married friends say that I must stop looking 
I am just afraid she’d be blonde, do you understand? one day I’d be breathing the same air, 
walking past her not knowing, that the night before he told her all about me and by all I mean “nothing” "nothing" what a wonderful word! What was she like?
A catch, but not to be kept, just for the photo (she laughed, he did not)

nobody’s coming —
back — offensive shit tbh

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Is that really your favourite movie? But it’s a fairytale))

(Nobody asked. Nobody answered)