The last 3 letters of the spring

I had this dream where I was wearing nothing
You were there too also wearing nothing 
but it wasn't really you
as in the you I always wanted

Have I finally come to my senses?

One word, just one word
repeat after me: “...”
Come one!
you know the drill
I just need to hear you say it
use your beautiful jawline and your beautiful mouth, use your beautiful arm and your beautiful rib
I am so 
… 

Oh, you still can't 
that's ok, my darling, I understand 
that's enough for tonight 
how was your summer
how was your autumn 
how was your winter
I heard you’ve been playing 
hard 
to get 
like a first time rat

All of this [Imagine throwing up in a bathroom and then accidentally choking on a tiny piece of apple; imagine, for years, being screamed at for never being like the other child; imagine even your imaginary friend starving itself] Oh, it was such a great idea—I’ve been thriving ever since, I agree, I've been doing...well (?)

I am so beautiful now
and my clothes are very chic—like the French girls; styling the sadness with loafers and the eye bags with oversized jackets [khaki and black]

You should see me 
so self-sufficient so cool 
I make espressos to die for and run like I am hunted 
One minute I am dancing naked and the next 
I am crying, dying 
to text you
something stupid, like, I saw it, I know!!! Just say it, one word, I am so "..." 
come on
let's do it!
pretend it didn't happen
all of this [Imagine throwing up in a bathroom and then accidentally choking on a tiny piece of apple; imagine, for years, trembling at the thought of someone holding your hand; even your imaginary friend be stalking him stalking you]
‘cause you know
I heard you've been doing so so "FINE", even though 
you should see me now—
I am so cool so less needy so less clingy

You should see me and 
my awesome new apartment 
you should come over some time 
have a coffee
I am making espressos to die for
my tiramisu is so much better, you should really try it!!!

One minute I am dancing and the next I am dialing a “DO NOT CALL” 
One minute I am dating and the next I am returning home alone because “wtf just happened” because wtf is everybody looking like him [they DO NOT] 

Imagine throwing up in a bathroom and then accidentally choking on a tiny piece of apple; 
I had this dream where I was wearing nothing.
You were there too also wearing nothing, 
playing hard to kill like a first time snake.